Jieb_Lover
sarNie OldFart
*This took me 2 days to write this, quite personal but though I'd share =)
I've like this guy for 2 and 1/2 years almost 3. I started to like him during the being of 8th grade. It's weird how I still remember the exact date it was September 16, 2005. And know we're now sophomores and still go to the same school. I've always wanted to be his friend and to be able to talk to him. One of my friends spilled out to him that I liked him while we were in 8th grade. I had 1 class with him and lunch. He told my friend that he didn't like me in that kind way. I was sad, no lies. I was so shy when he found out. And guess what? Thee friend that told him I liked him ended up dating him for a couple months. He liked her and she ended up liking him also. I didn't have any hatred for her though, it wasn't her fault but it hurted me so much that they were dating but later I got used to it. I was happy for him while I was sad and heartbroken also. I cried the day I found out they were dating. But than I got over it. I still liked him although I told the friend that was dating him that I didn't like him anymore, but really I was lying. She asked me if I still like him while they were dating and she said she wouldn't mind but I didn't want to hurt her so I lied but I bet she knew I was lying. But a couple months later they broke up. He was heartbroken and yes I felt pity for them, of course. Yes, that's how 8th grade passed by. 9th grade I didn't see him at all. I said hi to him around thee hallways when I was able to but it seemed like her didnt care. He liked another of my friend that year although she moved the year before that she was my best friend in fact but I was happy for them although they didn't date just more like benefits I took her to one of thee dances we had during that year so that they'd meet again and I wanted her to be there also. I was jealous at thee dance, of course but then I wanted him to be happy no matter what. I mean that's the least I can do for him since I can't give him anything more but they're over now, I'm sure. So many things has occurred those past 2 years. It wasn't till mid-December that was when we became friends and now we're close friends well at least good friends. I tell him basically everything since my I never see my best guy friend anymore. He tells me some things but he's not much of a talker but I love it when he is which is once in while, I want him to open more but I'm fine how he is right now. At least I get to talk to him. I wasn't so sure of myself if I would be able to talk to him but I just did it and he was thee reason why I have confidence in myself now. But I wished I we could have been friends earlier but oh well things are good right now no need to go back to thee past. But all these years I find myself still liking him, still having those same feelings for him. I tried so hard to get over him and move on because he doesn't feel the same it worked at one moment but then those same feelings keep coming back like its haunting me, seriously. I just can't get over him, I've got my reasons. Ha, he was the first for almost everything although we never dated. I've had my moments with him. Well, it was a kiddish love at first I think, it seems so immature now that I think back to it. Me and my friends, so foolish. But do you guys think its impossible to get over him? At times I think it is 'cause I've tried so many times but I just can't. Liking him I realized many experiences I never did before and learned many things, he was my first real crush. 'Cause that's when I learned and realized what liking a person really is. That feeling you get inside and what matters thee most, etc, etc. Sorry my story is so long, but I'm gonna stop here or else it'll never end. One of my girls say I should tell him before school ends, but I don't think so. I am planning to tell him how I've felt about him along when we'e done with our senior year but we'll see that's only if I've still got feelings for him. But everyday when I am with him and talking to him it gives me that special feeling that I just can't get rid of. I'm not sure of how he feels now but I'd rather not know. Everyday I try to not make it obvious that I like him so much. I just hope for the best, I'm rather happy being friends than nothinggg at all though. But I've got no clue what the futures got in store for me though. I just wish for him to be happy always.
I've like this guy for 2 and 1/2 years almost 3. I started to like him during the being of 8th grade. It's weird how I still remember the exact date it was September 16, 2005. And know we're now sophomores and still go to the same school. I've always wanted to be his friend and to be able to talk to him. One of my friends spilled out to him that I liked him while we were in 8th grade. I had 1 class with him and lunch. He told my friend that he didn't like me in that kind way. I was sad, no lies. I was so shy when he found out. And guess what? Thee friend that told him I liked him ended up dating him for a couple months. He liked her and she ended up liking him also. I didn't have any hatred for her though, it wasn't her fault but it hurted me so much that they were dating but later I got used to it. I was happy for him while I was sad and heartbroken also. I cried the day I found out they were dating. But than I got over it. I still liked him although I told the friend that was dating him that I didn't like him anymore, but really I was lying. She asked me if I still like him while they were dating and she said she wouldn't mind but I didn't want to hurt her so I lied but I bet she knew I was lying. But a couple months later they broke up. He was heartbroken and yes I felt pity for them, of course. Yes, that's how 8th grade passed by. 9th grade I didn't see him at all. I said hi to him around thee hallways when I was able to but it seemed like her didnt care. He liked another of my friend that year although she moved the year before that she was my best friend in fact but I was happy for them although they didn't date just more like benefits I took her to one of thee dances we had during that year so that they'd meet again and I wanted her to be there also. I was jealous at thee dance, of course but then I wanted him to be happy no matter what. I mean that's the least I can do for him since I can't give him anything more but they're over now, I'm sure. So many things has occurred those past 2 years. It wasn't till mid-December that was when we became friends and now we're close friends well at least good friends. I tell him basically everything since my I never see my best guy friend anymore. He tells me some things but he's not much of a talker but I love it when he is which is once in while, I want him to open more but I'm fine how he is right now. At least I get to talk to him. I wasn't so sure of myself if I would be able to talk to him but I just did it and he was thee reason why I have confidence in myself now. But I wished I we could have been friends earlier but oh well things are good right now no need to go back to thee past. But all these years I find myself still liking him, still having those same feelings for him. I tried so hard to get over him and move on because he doesn't feel the same it worked at one moment but then those same feelings keep coming back like its haunting me, seriously. I just can't get over him, I've got my reasons. Ha, he was the first for almost everything although we never dated. I've had my moments with him. Well, it was a kiddish love at first I think, it seems so immature now that I think back to it. Me and my friends, so foolish. But do you guys think its impossible to get over him? At times I think it is 'cause I've tried so many times but I just can't. Liking him I realized many experiences I never did before and learned many things, he was my first real crush. 'Cause that's when I learned and realized what liking a person really is. That feeling you get inside and what matters thee most, etc, etc. Sorry my story is so long, but I'm gonna stop here or else it'll never end. One of my girls say I should tell him before school ends, but I don't think so. I am planning to tell him how I've felt about him along when we'e done with our senior year but we'll see that's only if I've still got feelings for him. But everyday when I am with him and talking to him it gives me that special feeling that I just can't get rid of. I'm not sure of how he feels now but I'd rather not know. Everyday I try to not make it obvious that I like him so much. I just hope for the best, I'm rather happy being friends than nothinggg at all though. But I've got no clue what the futures got in store for me though. I just wish for him to be happy always.
but there is no waiting or painful longing involved. none of that. <_<
