roselovesice
방탄소년단 x Bangtan Sonyeondan x JiTaew
I know that there's a lot of answer to this, and I'm kind of shy yet embarrass to talk to about it. lol It could be lust, but probably not to that extent, or infatuation. Whatever it is, I would like it if you ladies can help me figure this out.
So recently my sister got married. I was her maid of honor. At first I didn't think much of the best man. He's Italian (and from Italy) whilst I'm Asian. I don't want to disclose my ethnicity. lol I've been friends with him on Facebook since 2013. I decided to add him so that when we meet, it won't be so hard to get along. Instead, it didn't go that way. I looked so shady when we met in person. I rarely talked to him in person but we talked quite a bit online prior to our meeting. We only had a few small conversations here and there but not enough to be considered a convo. lol Anyways, at first I was like whatever, It's just him but after he got a haircut and shaved his mustache, he looked really handsome. I was quite blown away when I saw him the morning of the wedding. lol I mean, he already had a haircut and he did shave his mustache already but he left a little hitler mustache until the next morning. lol Anyways, he looked great the morning of the wedding. His hair was on point. Haha. He's not the skinniest like how I prefer my guy but he was handsome. Anyways, we had to go take pictures and it was snowing and windy outside. I was wearing my 5 inch heels since my dress was too long to wear any shoes less than 5 inches. He helped me down the stairs since I was having difficulty walking on the ice/snow. Of course all the groomsman and the groom joked about us and was hollering at us. lol So as we were taking pictures, the photographer told us to pair up with the person we were going to walk down the aisle with and as we were waiting, he put his arms around my waist. It felt weird. I mean, of course anyone would put their arms around someone's waist because it's for pictures and no one thinks more when they're out in the cold. lol The wind starting blowing snow at us and I screamed that the snow was going down my dress. He then blocked the snow from hitting me and asked me if I was okay. I just nodded. After the pictures, we did a quick rehearsal and he asked about something and began to rub my right arm for a few seconds. Of course I didn't want to start or say anything so I just acted as if I didn't even notice it. Funny thing was my sister was there when it happened. She thought it was weird of him to do that to me since we rarely knew each other. He then gave me those hot pocket warmer thing to hold since the wedding took place outside.
Sometimes I feel like he doesn't like me as a person in general since he rarely talks to me, but at times he seems fine with me. He apologized to me later that day that he was just joking with me when we had to do our speech for the newlyweds. I just told him that it was okay. As we both were in one of the rooms switching the songs, we came across one of the Chinese group, Fahrenheit's song on my iTunes, he was like, "Oh! Ti Amo! Play that song." I just told him that it was a Chinese song. He then asked me, "Do you know what Ti Amo means?" I was like, "Yeah. It's 'I love you'." I felt weird saying that because well, I'm answering a guy's question on what Ti Amo means. I'm not sure how to explain how it felt but hopefully it makes sense? lol Later that night I was planning to leave back to the cabin that my family and I were staying at to change my shoes. It was only less than 10 feet from the venue. It was negative something outside and I had nothing to cover me. So, as I was going to walk out, my new brother in law asked me where I was going. I just told him that I was going back to the cabin to change my shoes quickly. He then told the best man to carry me back to the cabin. I automatically declined the offer since as a woman, we're quite insecure of our weight even if we're small. lol He carried me anyways and all the way back to the cabin in the cold. We literally almost fell when he lifted me up, because I became tense which made me even heavier to carry. lol He waited for me to return to the venue just in case I still needed him to carry me back, which I didn't because I was changed into my flats instead. The night just ended there. We didn't interact at all after that since I left to sleep. The next morning as I was leaving, he was waiting at the door to say bye when he didn't need to. Me, being the shy person, took forever to leave the house because I didn't want to say anything to him in front of my family. My family already left to the car by then. He came up to me and said, "Bye". I just gave him a side hug and thanked him for being a good partner. We had a quick 1 min. convo before I left. I just asked him when he was leaving back home, and he just told me that he's leaving back to Italy this weekend. I told him that we probably won't see each other this week if nothing goes on. He told me that there's a good chance we will see each other again before he leaves. We just said our Bye's after. Turns out, I saw him again last night, and I probably will again tonight. I know, this is boring and it's probably just all in my head. I don't even know what his spec is nor do I know what my brother in law tells him privately. My brother in law has been trying to hook me up with him for the longest time. I don't know if he even tells him that. lol The downfall is that he is already dating. I don't know how his relationship with her is like. Apparently he is open to anyone here in the States. My BIL keeps saying that he wants to marry an American girl, and he's here to look for a wife. I'm just like, "What in the world..? He ain't loyal!" LOL He's a nice guy but very much like my BIL. I'm not too fond of my BIL, specifically his personality, but we're okay though. lol I mean, they're not entirely alike but they behave alike in some sense. I don't think I left a good impression to him in a way. I was quite moody looking the entire time we were at the cabin prior to the wedding. I was just nervous. Okay, I have this problem where I get nervous when I meet people in person after being friends on FB for quite awhile. When I talked to him, I kept stuttering and my English went from good, normal to terrible. I couldn't even say the right words but then with everyone else I was totally fine. I barely made any eye contact with him when in general I would always make eye contact. I've been having a hard time sleeping lately too because I would think about what happened at the wedding and just him in general. My heart beats quite fast and I get all smiley when I think about him or when I'm around him. Probably just because I'm nervous. lol I didn't expect to maybe "like" him at all. I think it's just a phase at the moment though. I do really want to talk to him and get to know him better at least before he leaves in a few days. There just hasn't been a good, appropriate time for us to talk without my family around. All I can hope is that we would get a chance to talk tonight. I mean, I would have talked to him, but I don't know what to talk to him about. One of my friend at the wedding kept teasing me and that too bad he's taken because we looked good together. I'm like, "Uhh...that's weird." Weird because I find it weird when people compliment me like that. Haha. I'm just a weird person in general. I mean, this could be all just me. He probably doesn't care nor does he think more since he is a guy after all, not to generalize though. We're both culturally different too, so his actions could be normal to him but different to me. I don't know. I'm probably just infatuated by what he did to and for me. I mean, I have never been lift off my feet/carried by a guy before or had a guy helped me down the stairs before. I'm quite boring. lol As a girl, we get flattered easily. I'm so old, yet I'm acting like a little girl. lol Honestly, he's not my type of guy at all, but for some reason he was able to make himself become one. Haha. What do you guys think? Be honest with me because I obviously know that it's probably just all in my head. lol Stupid of me to even ask in the first place. Hahha.
So recently my sister got married. I was her maid of honor. At first I didn't think much of the best man. He's Italian (and from Italy) whilst I'm Asian. I don't want to disclose my ethnicity. lol I've been friends with him on Facebook since 2013. I decided to add him so that when we meet, it won't be so hard to get along. Instead, it didn't go that way. I looked so shady when we met in person. I rarely talked to him in person but we talked quite a bit online prior to our meeting. We only had a few small conversations here and there but not enough to be considered a convo. lol Anyways, at first I was like whatever, It's just him but after he got a haircut and shaved his mustache, he looked really handsome. I was quite blown away when I saw him the morning of the wedding. lol I mean, he already had a haircut and he did shave his mustache already but he left a little hitler mustache until the next morning. lol Anyways, he looked great the morning of the wedding. His hair was on point. Haha. He's not the skinniest like how I prefer my guy but he was handsome. Anyways, we had to go take pictures and it was snowing and windy outside. I was wearing my 5 inch heels since my dress was too long to wear any shoes less than 5 inches. He helped me down the stairs since I was having difficulty walking on the ice/snow. Of course all the groomsman and the groom joked about us and was hollering at us. lol So as we were taking pictures, the photographer told us to pair up with the person we were going to walk down the aisle with and as we were waiting, he put his arms around my waist. It felt weird. I mean, of course anyone would put their arms around someone's waist because it's for pictures and no one thinks more when they're out in the cold. lol The wind starting blowing snow at us and I screamed that the snow was going down my dress. He then blocked the snow from hitting me and asked me if I was okay. I just nodded. After the pictures, we did a quick rehearsal and he asked about something and began to rub my right arm for a few seconds. Of course I didn't want to start or say anything so I just acted as if I didn't even notice it. Funny thing was my sister was there when it happened. She thought it was weird of him to do that to me since we rarely knew each other. He then gave me those hot pocket warmer thing to hold since the wedding took place outside.
Sometimes I feel like he doesn't like me as a person in general since he rarely talks to me, but at times he seems fine with me. He apologized to me later that day that he was just joking with me when we had to do our speech for the newlyweds. I just told him that it was okay. As we both were in one of the rooms switching the songs, we came across one of the Chinese group, Fahrenheit's song on my iTunes, he was like, "Oh! Ti Amo! Play that song." I just told him that it was a Chinese song. He then asked me, "Do you know what Ti Amo means?" I was like, "Yeah. It's 'I love you'." I felt weird saying that because well, I'm answering a guy's question on what Ti Amo means. I'm not sure how to explain how it felt but hopefully it makes sense? lol Later that night I was planning to leave back to the cabin that my family and I were staying at to change my shoes. It was only less than 10 feet from the venue. It was negative something outside and I had nothing to cover me. So, as I was going to walk out, my new brother in law asked me where I was going. I just told him that I was going back to the cabin to change my shoes quickly. He then told the best man to carry me back to the cabin. I automatically declined the offer since as a woman, we're quite insecure of our weight even if we're small. lol He carried me anyways and all the way back to the cabin in the cold. We literally almost fell when he lifted me up, because I became tense which made me even heavier to carry. lol He waited for me to return to the venue just in case I still needed him to carry me back, which I didn't because I was changed into my flats instead. The night just ended there. We didn't interact at all after that since I left to sleep. The next morning as I was leaving, he was waiting at the door to say bye when he didn't need to. Me, being the shy person, took forever to leave the house because I didn't want to say anything to him in front of my family. My family already left to the car by then. He came up to me and said, "Bye". I just gave him a side hug and thanked him for being a good partner. We had a quick 1 min. convo before I left. I just asked him when he was leaving back home, and he just told me that he's leaving back to Italy this weekend. I told him that we probably won't see each other this week if nothing goes on. He told me that there's a good chance we will see each other again before he leaves. We just said our Bye's after. Turns out, I saw him again last night, and I probably will again tonight. I know, this is boring and it's probably just all in my head. I don't even know what his spec is nor do I know what my brother in law tells him privately. My brother in law has been trying to hook me up with him for the longest time. I don't know if he even tells him that. lol The downfall is that he is already dating. I don't know how his relationship with her is like. Apparently he is open to anyone here in the States. My BIL keeps saying that he wants to marry an American girl, and he's here to look for a wife. I'm just like, "What in the world..? He ain't loyal!" LOL He's a nice guy but very much like my BIL. I'm not too fond of my BIL, specifically his personality, but we're okay though. lol I mean, they're not entirely alike but they behave alike in some sense. I don't think I left a good impression to him in a way. I was quite moody looking the entire time we were at the cabin prior to the wedding. I was just nervous. Okay, I have this problem where I get nervous when I meet people in person after being friends on FB for quite awhile. When I talked to him, I kept stuttering and my English went from good, normal to terrible. I couldn't even say the right words but then with everyone else I was totally fine. I barely made any eye contact with him when in general I would always make eye contact. I've been having a hard time sleeping lately too because I would think about what happened at the wedding and just him in general. My heart beats quite fast and I get all smiley when I think about him or when I'm around him. Probably just because I'm nervous. lol I didn't expect to maybe "like" him at all. I think it's just a phase at the moment though. I do really want to talk to him and get to know him better at least before he leaves in a few days. There just hasn't been a good, appropriate time for us to talk without my family around. All I can hope is that we would get a chance to talk tonight. I mean, I would have talked to him, but I don't know what to talk to him about. One of my friend at the wedding kept teasing me and that too bad he's taken because we looked good together. I'm like, "Uhh...that's weird." Weird because I find it weird when people compliment me like that. Haha. I'm just a weird person in general. I mean, this could be all just me. He probably doesn't care nor does he think more since he is a guy after all, not to generalize though. We're both culturally different too, so his actions could be normal to him but different to me. I don't know. I'm probably just infatuated by what he did to and for me. I mean, I have never been lift off my feet/carried by a guy before or had a guy helped me down the stairs before. I'm quite boring. lol As a girl, we get flattered easily. I'm so old, yet I'm acting like a little girl. lol Honestly, he's not my type of guy at all, but for some reason he was able to make himself become one. Haha. What do you guys think? Be honest with me because I obviously know that it's probably just all in my head. lol Stupid of me to even ask in the first place. Hahha.