If you were genuinely, sincerely neutral to begin, you would have never been offended or even slightly affected by those ambiguous texts, because it would have been impossible for such vague criticisms to be rightly applicable to you. But because you've always pretended and wore an illusory facade, the arrows did not fail to penetrate the disguise and through to your real motive. But it's not so much the arrow as it is your own guilty conscience, is it?