Part V
A few weeks later, Thanatorn and Arrisa seperated themselves away from Sayla for a bit, after realizing that she was starting to get suspicious. However, Thanatorn was getting nervous each day when the follow up appointment was coming up. How was he suppose to explain to her? How will she react when she hears that she needed a new heart or else? He felt so overwhelmed that he couldn't even sleep at night. He'd stay up and stare at her while she slept, not even waking her when Nani awakes for her midnight feedings. He'd been so consumed with Sayla's sickness and their baby that he doesn't even know what's happening in his world, much less his country and the ongoing battle between the two presidents. Thanatorn's mind and body felt so tired that he didn't feel himself drifting off into blankness, surrounding by sleep.
Sayla awoke, sat up, and looked around and realized that she was alone in the bedroom. Thanatorn was'nt next to her. She glanced over at the clock and it said, 6:35AM. She wiped the sleep from her eyes and rised from bed, wanting to check on the nursey to see if perhaps Thanatorn had fallen asleep there. She left the bedroom and immediately saw Thanatorn slouched on the couch fast asleep. She gave a warm smile, poor darling, you must be tired. She disappeared into the bedroom , and returned with a blanket to cover him. Arrisa must be sound asleep as well, she thought, since it's still very early. Great, this was an opportunity to be alone with Nani as she breatfeed her.
When she got to the nursery, Nani was awake squirming around in her crib. She smiled and picked up the baby.
Nani, my sweet angel, were you awake all this time sweetie? Did Daddy fall asleep on you? Hmm... it's okay, sweetie. Daddy's tired, he's been working so hard. Mommy's here now. You must be starving.
Sayla sat on the rocking chair and allowed the baby to latch on to her breast to feed her. She rocked them softly on the chair and started to sing a sweet melody in the dark lit room. The rain was still drizzling outside. After the feeding, Nani was fast asleep again. Hehe, sleepy head. Mommy loves you. Sayla kissed the baby and put her back in the crib.
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Thanatorn woke up in a jolt. He looked around and realized that he had fallen asleep in the living room. He threw the covers off of him and looked at his watch, 10:55AM. Oh shit! He exclaimed and quickly scrambled to his feet, wanting to check on Sayla and make sure that she wasn't doing any heavy duty work that she's been trying to do. Thanatorn quickly went to the bedroom, but didn't find her there. Then he realized that she must be in the nursery, so he quickly ran there. He swung the door open to find the rocking chair empty, and the room appeared to be empty. He then approached the crib to check on Nani, and she was sound asleep. Hello my sweet baby... Where's Mommy? HmmM? He whispered. Thanatorn turned around quietly not wanting to wake the baby. When he was about to exit the nursey, he caught a glimpse of something on the floor, on the other side of the crib.
He turned around and crept slowly to the crib, trying not to wake Nani. When he got there, he glanced over the crib to the otherside, and right away, his eyes widened.
SAYLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh No!!!!! He shouted and immediately went to Sayla and grabbed a hold of her. Sayla had collapsed and is unconcious. SAYLA!!!!! Thanatorn shook her, but no response. Nani then started crying from the loud voices of her father.
Sayla????!!!! Are you okay??? Sayla!!!!! Saylaaa!!!!! ARRISA!!! HELP!!!!! ARRISA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The cries of Nani and Thanatorn's voice intertwined and echoed through the house, sending Arrisa running frantically into the nursery.
Thanatorn - Arrisa!!! Sayla is unconcious, call 911 NOW!!!!!!
Arrisa took a crying Nani and ran out of the nursery looking for a phone. She was so nervous that she went around in a circle, confused as to where the phone was while Nani cried and wailed in her arms. Shit, shit!!! She cried as she circled around for the phone, eventhough it was right there hung up by in the kitchen. Arrisa finally made it to the phone and dialed 911.
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At the hospital, Thanatorn cradled Nani and paced back and fourth in the waiting room, and felt as though the darkness and demons were pulling him by the leg. Sayla has been in the operation room for about 30 minutes now, but it felt like an eternalty.
Arrisa wiped away her tears as she watched her brother paced around like a madman with a baby in his hand.
Arrisa - P'Torn, here let me take Nani.
Torn - No... I..I... want to hold her.
Arrisa - But, P'Torn... I think you should give Nani to me and sit down, you... you.. don't look so good.
There was a pause.
Arrisa - P'Torn?? Give me Nani.
Torn - I said NO, GOD DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!
Arrisa was startledd and jumped.
Arrisa - I'm sorry.....
Thanatorn - I'm..I'm.... sorry....
Thanatorn couldn't find the words. He didn't know why he snapped at his sister when all she wanted was to help him. He cringged his eyes and shut them as tears rolled down his face. He hugged Nani closed to him and cried while still pacing around.
Arrisa looked down at the floor and started to weep. She understood her brother's frustrations, but she was so worried about him and about Nani. His eyes were so bloodshot from not sleeping and his body has been flinching from sleep deprivation, and yet, he won't sit down and rest. Arrisa sighed, stood up, and went over and took a hold of Nani softly out of his arms.
Arrisa - I'll take her, P'Torn...
Thanatorn let go on Nani and covered his face. He was a mess; he wanted to wake up from this nightmare, but how can he when this nightmare was a reality. He wanted to to shout at the top of his lungs, but that wouldn't help much. He wanted to reached inside his chest and pull out his heart for her, but he knew that was impossible. Thanatorn felt so defeated as he staggered to a chair and sat down. The clock on the wall was ticking as Arrisa and Thanatorn waited for word from the doctor; words they wanted to hear, but words they wished they'd never hear.
lome you are me crying..it's so sad
