i feel ya pain...
i know this feelin so well, here are some random thoughts and blabin of mine...
when u fall, u fall deep and theres no way to pick ur self backup, ppl say time will help heal the pain, but rite now time makes the pain worse, people say that it'll get better each day, but each day it isnt, ppl say that everything will be fine again and u'll find someone who truly luvs u, but the only person that u want is the person that just stabbed ur heart and walked away from ur life how could everything be fine?!, how could someone that said they luv you say that they dont have the same feeling or feel that way abt u anymore...was it a lie when they said?! and dont they feel any pain at all when they said good-bye, wat happen to the memorizes and happie time that we had with each other, was that all just make believe? if u dont have feelin or if there's nothing anymore why go and hurt us by cheating, and if u know that u're gonna cheat y commit to us in the being, why not just be friends, why send mix signs and have us think that u feel the same when u're just playin us, time will heal, time will make it better...but will time make me forget abt u cuz thats wat i wanna do...just forget abt everything that happen between us...Time it can heal and it can hurt, love suck but i wont wanna not know how it feels...*sigh*
so yay that just me venting sorry if its confusein i just typed wat i was feel...but truthfully Time does help heal but it just takes to long to come and the pain its now and u just want it to be gone u know...i know that eventually we'll all heal, move on, and be happy again...and havein good friends to support u and tell u that (even tho at that time u dont wanna here it) it helps alot...
edit: ok im back to add some more/edit i know im a blaber, but i thought abt this while i was just out to grib coffee...there's always 2 side to everything and sooner or later we'll all be on both side of the fence, so here's the POV from the other side...
It's not that u dont know that it wont hurt that person (thats why its hard to say it) but u cant make ur self feel something that u dont anymore, ppl views/feeling change and the more u get to know that person the more u'll know if u can stay with him/her or u have to end it be4 things get out of hand, u rather tell the person now so they wont fall in to deep, its heartless and its mean to say u luv someone than out of the blue say u dont anymore, the feelin isnt there anymore but wont u rather say it now than have the person think that everything is good and happie? also u're hurting too becuz here u have someone that luvs u and u use to luv and u're gonna have to break their heart, it hurts but u know that in the long run its all for the best...they'll move on and find someone that is better and will be able to luv them truly