iknow iknow i havent been on for WEEKS. and im guilty for that, believe me i can feel it lol. I really need your opinions. The guy that use and kind of still does catch my eye was a friend i grew up with. You know how they always say the one you're looking for is always in front of your eyes? And if you don't hold onto it, someone else would? Lets just say, he's the one im willing to actually Go for. lol. Not literally fight for but stand by his side through thick and thin. My good friend used to tell me or convince me to tell him. But i would always deny the opportunity. we've know each others for 7 years. And never did i ever pay attention to him. He was the "Okay hey bye help friend." or a little more conversationISH. All these years ive never seen him with a girl ever. And i guess because of that, the thought of him being someones else never appeared in my head to make me prepare to actually see... until now. Oh gosh, sometimes i regret soo much that i should have told him. But at same time, it would be awkward if he would have said no he doesnt feel the same as me. That thought was always in my head. And because of that i never thought What if he had said yes... But the thought of No made me focus on how It will surely ruin our long year friendship. He is currently talking or Seeing a girl who is the same race as him but mix. And im not btw. I hear she is aggressive and preppy and *Quote* Tough. I know if i get in the way it wouldnt do me good nor do i want that.I know some folks will be like "you have to fight in order to get what you want" but im not like that, more of a soothing person. But it hurts to think of him being hers. Just typing about this makes me sad and teary. Soo, okay Noy. Remember i told you i had a bad dream? And well my dream was that he and i were face to face. And he told me "i love her*Her name*" to me. i felt so cornered and blacked out. Noy told me bad dreams mean the opposite. I really need help how to get out of this trap.