"P'Patta"
"little aff .." he return back to her and reach out to grab her hand , then draw it toward his cheek.
"what did you just said? .." she felt the wetness of his tear on the back of her hand and watch him rub his cheek against it . she was overwhelm with emotion and tremble in tear , how can a monster like him express himself with so much pain as if he is the one to be pity ?
"I..I..love you "his teary eye was still visible and for the first time ever , he was relief as if a rock just fall of his back and give him strength to move without a heavy load to carry on . He still unsure how she feel about him but it doesn't matter because he finally get to say what in his heart . He kiss her hand with such tenderness , its almost like he afraid to broke her to pieces .
"stop acting !.." she snatch her hand away and turn to the side while clinging onto the sheet against her chest , as if her life depend on it .
"I..I.." his lip froze after seeing her reaction , is he that bad of a person that no body believe him ? He was about to give up by telling himself she is in love with another man and he is just a devil that came into her life . A person like him doesn't deserve anything beautiful as her . He should leave and never return , it the only way for him to redeem himself . With that in mind , Patta decided and said "I will leave Chiang Mai. I'm sorry for all the thing I done and please do not forgive me. Im a sinner"
"leave"
"I..I will as soon as mother Rosa wakes up but there one more thing I want you to know " he hesitated for a moment and then place his hand on her stomach
"don't touch me .." she reach down to knock his hand away but instead got lock under his and he pin it there above her stomach ,
"don't move " he felt her hand relax and then continue " I never did believe the child was ..Brook. There was never a doubt in my mind , I had always knew the child was mine but the only reason I deny it, is because you want it that way. I know how much you are hurting to carry a child out of incest , I might be a monster in your eye but I have a heart . That day you went to the clinic , do you know how much I worry ? if anything was to happen to the both of you , I swear i would die that day "
"yet you still let me face the world by myself when my father scorn at me .." she wanted him to stand up for her and confess his sin that day but when he deny everything , she was deeply hurt
"you know we have to keep this a secret, it a sin"
"yes, this secret will die with me " she turn to face him ,
"I..I want to take responsible for your life , god be my witness I really do - but I can't . You don't love me like i love you and it wrong ..so wrong to force this upon you because I know you hate me for what I have done to your mother and palin"
"then tell me , why ? why are you destroying my family ?"
"i can't tell you "
"then leave, please leave" her voice was broken and tear was streaming down
Patta release his hand and silently step away from the bed, he was in tear as much as her ! O' why does it have to end this way ? He doesn't want to leave and couldn't peel his face away from her . He hate to see her in tear but what should he do ? He had told her everything that in his heart but nothing came out of it!!! Obviously she hate him! If she show any sign of love ..or pity toward him , surely he will persuade this love ..even though its ..wrong ! But this ..nothing , all he see is tear from her eye and question about his revenge . O'...dear lord he want this girl so much! Patta turn away and was about to exit the door but he return back to her again and said "then come with me ..lets start over . I promise I'll take good care of you and our child"
"we can't do this ..i can't love you nor can we be together "
"we can be together ..come with me"
"you want me to elope with you ?..i can't what will people think...this is wrong , you are my brother --"
"I don't want to be your brother ! I want to be your lover and a father"
"I can't !! You are my mother lover, its wrong no no no "
"but i love you so much "
"please, we can't"
They stare into each other eye with such sadness and longing , that they wasn't aware of Mr.Taksorn standing by the door and over heard their conversation .
