Quoted from Novel Namtarnmai(Burnt sugar) by Chorladda
At that moment, she thought faintly of Pee Tao. By law, he is her husband, but in reality he is just like another brother to her. His soft hand held her hand or felt her forehead when she was sick. His voice was tender when asked her how she felt, but nothing more than that.
For Pee Tao is a man who has a mind of a woman, he treats her just like she is his little sister a sister whom he loves dearly. Pee Tao only loves and wants to look after someone just like a wife look after her husband. The way he treated Pee Patthat man was full with love and admiration.
They could live happily together without her in that house. In fact, they were better off without her as a third wheel so they didnt have to feel awkward. She could never be happy there either as she always felt being out of place. That kind of feeling kept bothering her incessantly.
Bo Pawan called her name
Kha
Thuma answered him softly. She doesnt regret at all about what just happened. On the contrary, her heart is filled with joy. She isnt sure if her act is a compensation from a blunder she made by marrying Tao. Deep inside her mind, she wants to find someone who can heal her pain and the feeling of being unwanted.
His lips are warm, so is his touch. Thuma responds to him spontaneously. She is kissing, holding and caressing him. Her heart filled with love.
Bo, I love you, very much so Pawan said again.
Thuma holds him instead of answering. She feels so touched by his word, which confirms to her that the whole thing is truly love, not just lust.
Pawan: if our relationship remains like this, you think somebody will say anything?
Bo: who do you mean?
Pawan: I mean your husband.
Talking about her husband while being in bed with another man seems very immoral; however she knows that her husband is not the same as other men.
She has just lost her virginity tonight. By practice, Pawan could have been her husband....the first man in her life.
Bo: I dont know and I dont care about what other people think
Pawan: What about me? You think I shouldnt care about other people.
Have you thought of a divorce?
Bo: Have you thought of getting married?
Pawan: Of course, Ive thought about it. I think marriage is a wonderful thing in life that one should experience He confirmed by embracing her tightly.
Bo: It could be. If you had a chance to choose a right person, you would have a happy marriage
Pawan: what about you, did you have a chance to do that?
Bo: Sometimes life is not always what we expected to be
Pawan: What do you mean? Can you give me an example?
Bo: Id rather not. I dont want to bad-mouth anybody
Pawan almost get crossed with her when she said that, but with her sad voice following a long sigh, he didnt want to press her. Instead he said thing that just come across his mind.
If I marry someone, do you think our relationship would be different?
Bo: It depends on us and your wife to be. Any woman wouldnt want to share their man with anybody else. She surely wouldnt want you to have me on the side
Pawan: Am I going to get into trouble doing that?
Bo: I dont know. According to the society, if the girl is still your girlfriend, she may be mad if you have someone else, but once you marry her, she wont tolerate that kind of behavior.
Pawan: What about you? Would you be like that?
Bo: I dont think so. I may be different from other girls. My experience taught me that one should have a limit of jealousy. Too much of it could do harm. I cant even control my own heart, how can I control other people heart
Pawan: Is that right?
Bo: Perhaps
When I have a new girl, remember what you just said Pawan teased
You are a strange girl Bo
Bo: No, Im not. I am a type of person who cant stand not having anything. If I dont get what I want, I always have to replace it with something else
Pawan: Are you very disappointed with your husband?
Bo: Cant really say that. At least I got something from him
He thought; should he believe the whole thing she just said? However Pawan didnt want to pry so he stopped asking her questions. He lifted her face with both his hands and started to kiss her forehead and moved down to her lipshe could feel the moisture and tenderness there.
She snuggled up to him. He could feel her tear on his cheek.
She probably has a lot of things in her mind, but doesnt want to discuss it. She is good at hiding her feeling. Sometimes he doubted she has something to hide. She said that she loves him, does she really mean it or just say it in order to please him. May be she has something that bothers her, but doesnt want to let him know; Pawan thought.
