Iya
sarNie Adult
The Story:
I've been neighbor/friends with this family for almost fifteen years and it wasn't until my high school years, seven years ago that I've started noticing the family's eldest son, Gray and developed a crush on him. Now, that was weird that I did because were not even friends, more like strangers when i started to notice him. He was also the type I don't associate with because my circle of friend is very different from his. He was an all start football/basketball (all sports, my school best player) senior in my high school when i was a freshman. i started hearing his name alot and suddenly realized that he is my neighbor all my life. my friend started teasing me one day when I bumped into him (he asked me for help finding a person in the library) and say that I like him. it was then that i discovered that i like him.
Now I hid my feelings even till today, two years after I graduated. However, during these years, I became very close to his parents, especially his father (who is very proud of Gray, btw, and never cease to stop talking about him). Gray's father is like a mentor and father figure to me and I go to him whenever I need someone to talk to. His mother is terrific too. But this summer, she discovered that I like her son but told me she'll help keep it a secret. What's funny is that Gray's father know that I have this feeling for someone and I talk to him alot about it. he always help me to overcome my crush but always suggested that i don't do anything about it since the guy i like is too stupid and blind to even notice me. The funny part is, he never know that the guy that I like is actually his son. (i also have this impression that he wants me and Gray together too b/c he usually hint it time and time again. I know, awkward.)
As for Gray himself, we're still not on friend level. We're like acquainted. he see me alot of his house visiting his parent and was always nice to me. but we never really talked. i usually get flustered around him and avoid going to his house when he is there alone.
However, i've tried many time to get over this feeling and would succeed for a couple of weeks or months. unfortunately, as soon as i see his face, all the feelings come rushing back and i'm at square again.
The personalities:
Gray: A social butterfly, knows everyone and everyone knows him. very skill in martial arts, sports, and very very attractive (believe me, he is like those hottie from the shojo manga where everygirl wants him, lol). he's has alot of friend. Unfortunately, he drinks (but responsibly), smokes, loves to party with his friends, and never lacks female companions, and is always on the go.
Me: the extact opposite of him. I have a small circle of close friends, don't remember names and faces that well, know almost nothing about sports, and i laid back. I hate parties and rather spend my time reading a good book, or watch tv dramas.
overall: We're complete opposites, having no similar interests at all. the only thing we have in common is the fact that we're neighbors. We barely talk and have completely different circle of friends.
The problems:
I'm determined to get over him. I use to want to confront him about my feelings, but neither of us deserve that aggravation. Besides, if it turns out bad, I'll probably don't have the face to visit his family again, even if i only have problems with him. I really like his father and his mother, and i like being over there.
Unfortunately, since now i've never successfully gotten him out of my system. I've though of telling the truth to his father, but that will make it even worst. So i'm out of idea.
anyone willing to help or give advice?
I've been neighbor/friends with this family for almost fifteen years and it wasn't until my high school years, seven years ago that I've started noticing the family's eldest son, Gray and developed a crush on him. Now, that was weird that I did because were not even friends, more like strangers when i started to notice him. He was also the type I don't associate with because my circle of friend is very different from his. He was an all start football/basketball (all sports, my school best player) senior in my high school when i was a freshman. i started hearing his name alot and suddenly realized that he is my neighbor all my life. my friend started teasing me one day when I bumped into him (he asked me for help finding a person in the library) and say that I like him. it was then that i discovered that i like him.
Now I hid my feelings even till today, two years after I graduated. However, during these years, I became very close to his parents, especially his father (who is very proud of Gray, btw, and never cease to stop talking about him). Gray's father is like a mentor and father figure to me and I go to him whenever I need someone to talk to. His mother is terrific too. But this summer, she discovered that I like her son but told me she'll help keep it a secret. What's funny is that Gray's father know that I have this feeling for someone and I talk to him alot about it. he always help me to overcome my crush but always suggested that i don't do anything about it since the guy i like is too stupid and blind to even notice me. The funny part is, he never know that the guy that I like is actually his son. (i also have this impression that he wants me and Gray together too b/c he usually hint it time and time again. I know, awkward.)
As for Gray himself, we're still not on friend level. We're like acquainted. he see me alot of his house visiting his parent and was always nice to me. but we never really talked. i usually get flustered around him and avoid going to his house when he is there alone.
However, i've tried many time to get over this feeling and would succeed for a couple of weeks or months. unfortunately, as soon as i see his face, all the feelings come rushing back and i'm at square again.
The personalities:
Gray: A social butterfly, knows everyone and everyone knows him. very skill in martial arts, sports, and very very attractive (believe me, he is like those hottie from the shojo manga where everygirl wants him, lol). he's has alot of friend. Unfortunately, he drinks (but responsibly), smokes, loves to party with his friends, and never lacks female companions, and is always on the go.
Me: the extact opposite of him. I have a small circle of close friends, don't remember names and faces that well, know almost nothing about sports, and i laid back. I hate parties and rather spend my time reading a good book, or watch tv dramas.
overall: We're complete opposites, having no similar interests at all. the only thing we have in common is the fact that we're neighbors. We barely talk and have completely different circle of friends.
The problems:
I'm determined to get over him. I use to want to confront him about my feelings, but neither of us deserve that aggravation. Besides, if it turns out bad, I'll probably don't have the face to visit his family again, even if i only have problems with him. I really like his father and his mother, and i like being over there.
Unfortunately, since now i've never successfully gotten him out of my system. I've though of telling the truth to his father, but that will make it even worst. So i'm out of idea.
anyone willing to help or give advice?
