My Girl…My love
“I used to have a girlfriend back in Songkala, but we had less time spent together because I would spend most of my time playing soccer. If she wanted to see me, she would have to go see me at the soccer field. My first girlfriend, well I wouldn’t call her girlfriend because it was a one-sided love. My best friend and I liked the same girl but I didn’t tell him but he told me that he liked her. So I helped him out by giving letters from him to her. So then she was in the same classroom as me but my friend was in another classroom, so we became close. I was scared to tell her that I loved her, I kind showed through my actions and my friend started noticing. He asked me if I liked her, and I just told him yes. He didn’t say anything, he just told me that I could’ve just told him but then I still didn’t tell her how I felt. The school held a goodbye party and we all had to write something on each other’s shirt. So I took off my shirt for her to write something on it but all she wrote was: I’ll miss you, friend. So when the party was over, she was sitting down waiting for her mom so I walked up to her and I told her that I liked her. She was shocked at first, and was silent for a long time, then she said she rather be friends. How embarrassing was that. When I like girls, it usually doesn’t work out because I’m always playing soccer. Most girls like guys that are some what perfect and does well in school. The latest crush I had was a girl from my college. We’re in the status of talking right now(doo jai gun) to see if she’s the one for me. I haven’t told her yet but I do tell myself don’t wait too long to tell her because other guys are talking to her right now too. I used to be disappointed in love one time though. I went out with this girl for 4 years. Her parents trusted me with her. But then later on she had a change of heart. She went and liked a tomb boy. So I broke it off with her before I get more hurt than this. I had to heal myself for 6 months and I swore to myself that no girls will ever hurt me ever again. I get less heartbroken now. If I’m going out with a girl and if things aren’t going right and I know she’s not the one then I’ll just tell straight out that she could go find someone better, because I don’t want to say you’re too good for me, that’s old school (lol). Even though we broke up, we could still be friends. Love can change people. Girls that are heart broken from guys can have a change of heart to liking tomb boys. Guys that are heart broken from girls they can have a change of heart to liking gay guys. So that’s why before I get into a really serious relationship, I always think carefully about it.�
Today: True Life
“As I came and work in this area, the one thing that change my life is the way I live my life. I always have to be aware of the things I do. I have to keep my emotions inside, have to put myself with other people. I can’t do the things I used to do like before anymore. When I’m at school, that place is like my home to me, I have to be aware of it too. Sometimes I’ll be pissed at something then I come and put it out on my friends, or when my friends bother me, I just yell at them back. But when I calm down, I just go and apologize. The strategy I use to calm my anger is I don’t talk to anyone. Usually I’m a friendly guy that likes to have fun. They’ll be less times where I get mad but I’m the kind of person that gets mad fast but I’ll get over it quickly. I’m still confused as of today, from being a kid who used to be disobedient and never thought of living the life of today. I have this kind of life now, so I have to do my best. At first, I thought the entertainment industry have lots of gay people. People told me to be aware because I might get trick but when I finally experienced it myself, there’s really nothing. Their nice to me, wants what’s best for me. I didn’t hurt them and they didn’t hurt me. They’re part of this industry and everyone has their own job to take responsibility of. When I really got to work with them on the set, I loved them already. My make up artists is really nice and they spoil me too. So I pay them back by giving them snacks to eat or we would go out and eat. I want to thank everyone for making my dream come true and making it an exciting one too.�
Addicted to….
1. Fried eggs.
“I must have it every meal time. Sometimes, I’ll eat a little of eat and I would save the left over. Most of the foods I eat must always have fried eggs in it.�
2. My watch
“I always have to wear one. If I forget mines, I have to borrow someone. Without it, my wrist feels lonely and light for some reason.�
3. Earrings
“I wore them since high school. When I first got it pierced, my parents didn’t know about it. My second oldest brother got his pierced too but he didn’t want me to be like him but he understands that I’m a teenager so he didn’t say anything. And when I entered Dutchie, I pierced another one, I thought it looked cool. I only have 3 pairs of earring and they would all have a big gem on it. I would get worried about it too so on the set, I’ll take them off. When I don’t where them for a long time, my ear will feel light but when I wear them again, my ear would feel heavy, it took me a long time before I got used to it again. Now I even where on the set.�
4. The words he always say with his group of friends.
“Jing jing na wuey (for real man…)
Did you know about Aof
“I hate soy milk. When I was in kindergarten, all the kids had to take a nap in the daytime. Before the kids take a nap, the teacher would give us ovaltine and soy milk to drink. The first time I drank soy milk, I threw up right away. So when we ate lunch, I would trade my soy milk with other people for something else. Can you believe this, as of today when ever I pass by a shop that sells soy milk, I would throw up. My friends tricked me once. They put a glass of soy milk in front of me, I threw up right there. I don’t like the smell of it. When I have to go buy soy milk with my friends, I tell them to just go in with out me. The latest was when I went on the set, the stylist was drinking it, I closed my nose and told them don’t come any close. They knew that I hate soy milk so the next day they tricked me and I ran outside the set. I should never told them that I hate soy milk. The other thing I hate is mouse/rats especially the baby ones. I have a history with this too. When I was little, I was playing hide and seek with my friends and I went to go hide under a van. Where I was hiding, there was sewer next to it and my hand was next to it and I felt something soft with my hands. It turned out to be little rats, all red and everywhere. I screamed and ran out. So every time, there’s rats or mouse in my house, I would jump up on top of the table and yell for my mom to come hit it. My mom thinks that I’m gay or something, what kind of guy is scared of rats and mouse. I admit that I’m really scared of them and is disgusted by them. My brother once had them as a pet and I almost threw up too.�