I'll be a buzzkill and kind of break the whole fandom "intellectual banter" here (lovestar's right, No names! hahaha), but I just want to say, it's hard too to fangirl a celebrity who is generally hated or unaccepted or unliked. It's one thing to fangirl someone who is so popular and so loved, and then get pitted against a rival actor/actress who is also so popular and so loved - and quite another thing to fangirl someone who is generally disliked. I don't know, I'm not sure if it's really that way with the object of my affection, or I just feel a bit defensive about it. But since I've been into Thai ET, in most places that I've been to, the guy i like is generally disliked/bashed.
I actually joined the forums precisely to look for other fans like me, so I can fangirl and spazz out with other people, but it had been difficult initially. Thankfully I've found a handful of people who share the same idea as me. Probably not as much as I love the guy, but at least they do not hate him. I was trying so hard not to be all upfront and defensive and tell everyone to "please give him a chance!" because I know everyone is entitled to his/her opinion and they are free to hate him as much as they want to but I will lie if I say I don't get hurt when people kinda bash him - but I do try my very best to have a level headed comment that would bring in a "new perspective" but yes, I do acknowledge that talking about him in a positive light would not make other people like him. If they choose to hate him, I can't change their mind - and actually I have no right to change their minds. But yeah, It's really really hard to stay quiet and not go out there and defend something or someone you really like. I get paranoid just thinking if I should speak up or not, because if I do speak up, I'm afraid I'll come off as pontificating even when really I just wanted to voice out my opinion (which just happened to be the opposite - that is, i like this unliked guy)
But then amidst all that, I feel that I am his biggest critic. I do hope that in my many (insanely long) posts here in the forums, I managed to express that I do acknowledge that he's not perfect, but I still really really like him and wish for him to succeed. I suppose I want to take this opportunity to apologize for my really long rants when I'm going through my bouts of fangirling. Please forgive me, I just wanted to put it out there and hope someone else would read about it and agree/disagree so as not to keep it all inside my head. (And if there are other fans out there, SPEAK UP! I NEED YOU! LET'S FANGIRL/FANBOY TOGETHER!)
I guess Peace is right, that emotion that an actor elicits from a person - that way he makes you "feel" something - in this case, I get to feel or experience "caring" for someone, I guess that's what makes the whole fangirling experience worthwhile. Of course it becomes more fun when you're bonding with other people from across the globe and you're fangirling and loving the same thing together.
Back on topic - I actually don't want to meet him personally ever. I mean, I'd watch his concert, but I wouldn't want to go up to him and shake his hand and talk to him. I don't know. right now he remains to be a "real fantasy" - i mean, i know he's real, but the fact that he's not in the same "world" as I am in, then he remains to be a fantasy. I don't know if that made sense. that's also one of the special nuances of fangirling I suppose. It's really strange.
