I think I understand why she wants to leave....I mean, if you’ve loved someone for so long but they don’t love you back, you just....lose hope. And it’s hard for you to trust them again once you’ve already convinced your heart to stop beating for them.
I’ve loved someone for 10 years now, loved him silently at first, then love him openly and unapologetically, fought for him, stood by his side, and then moved aside for him to be with someone else, twice! Watched and love him on the sideline as he loved someone else, even helping him to keep their relationship alive. And then finally after 9 years, he finally saw my love and now wants to be with me. Though we’ve been happy this past year, and he’s shown me that he loves me also, one year doesn’t make up for the past 9 years that I’ve been hurt.
Only in lakorns is it worth it for the n’ek at the end after the pr’ek has mistreated her and had his share of fun with other girls. I realized after 10 years that it’s not worth it. And no matter how much he loves me now, I can’t trust him anymore. Always in the back of my mind, I’m always doubting his love, always afraid that someone else is gonna come along and he’s gonna jump ship cause he never thought I was good enough for him, he only learned to love me after everyone else left him and I was the only one left. He may have shown me great Love in this short happy time we had together but he’s yet to give me hope for a future together. And maybe I’m afraid of that hope, I’m afraid to have hope again because the hope that he’ll one day love me, hope that we’ll work out was what kept me tied to him for so long and was what kept me hurt all these years. That’s why even though he now loves me, and I still love him dearly, I left him cause the pain was too much for me to bare. It wasn’t worth it in the end.
But it’s good to know that somewhere in this world whether it’s in real life or in a lakorn that there’s a happy ending for someone’s long unrequited love.