Chapter 10: The Discovery
Ana finally found her voice.
Ana: “Where are you taking me?”
Christian: “I want to show you my playroom” he smirks.
Ana: “You want to play Xbox?” she is surprised.
Christian laughed out loud.
Christian: “No, Anastasia. No Xbox. No Playstation.” Smiling, holding her hand, he came to a stop in front of a door. He reached into his pocket and found a key.
He took a deep breath and looks at her. All serious now.
Christian: “I just want to make sure you know that you can leave any time. Helicopter is on standby to take you wherever you want to go. You can stay the night or you can go home in the morning. It’s up to you.”
Ana nods…. Unsure what to say and what to expect.
He opened the door and what she saw took her breath away.
The room is dark with burgundy walls, mahogany floors, a king size bed with red leather and cushions and a black leather couch. Weirdly, all the wood, dark walls, leather and moody lighting make the room almost romantic. That is until she noticed the details….cuffs, chains, paddles, feathery stuff … you name it, he has it.
She is in shock or perhaps felt fear too. She doesn’t think he’d hurt her… at least not without her consent. Many questions entered her mind. How. Who, How often. WHY.
Christian: “Say something” he commands softly.
Ana: “Do you do this to people or do they do this to you?”
Christian: “People?” he seemed relieved to hear her voice. “I do this to women who want me to”.
Ana: "How many...."she doesn't finish her sentense but he knew what she wanted to know.
Christian: "Ten"
She is mildly surprise. Not as many as she thought.
Ana: “Are you a sadist?”
Christian: “I am a Dominant”
Ana: “What does that mean?” she whispers …
Christian: “It means I want you to willingly surrender yourself to me, in all things” he continued. “In simple terms, I want you to want to please me”.
Ana: “How do I do that?” she is confused as ever.
Christian: “I have rules and I want you to comply with them. They are for your benefit and my pleasure”.
Ana: “And where does all this fit in?” she eyed the entire room again....
Christian: “it’s all a part of reward and punishment”.
Ana: “What do I get out of this?”
He hesitated and answered…
Christian: “Me” he says simply, almost apologetic.
Ana is so confused. Part of her is ready to run and the other part wanted to stay.
Christian: “I am not going to hurt you, Anastasia”.
She believes him. She doesn’t know why but she knows he is being truthful.
Christian: “Let’s go. It’s very distracting having you in here”. He held out his hand. Ana hesitate for a minute but took his hand and followed him out of the room.
Christian: “If you agree to do this, let me show you….” he said as they moved passed a couple of doors “This will be your room”.
Eyes wide. Ana is horrified.
Ana: “My room? You want me to move in with you?”
Christian: “Not full time. Just Friday through Sunday”
Ana: “I sleep here?”
Christian: “Yes”.
Ana: “Not with you?”
Christian: “No. I told you. I don’t sleep with anyone” he paused and looked at her “….except you, when you were drunk the other day”.
Ana: “Where do you sleep?”
Christian: “My room is on another floor.” “Let’s get something to eat. You just had a drink and I don’t want you to get drunk”.
Ana followed him to the kitchen. She is not in the mood for food or think she can eat at this moment.
Christian: “Anastasia, you’ve signed the NDA. You can ask me anything you want. I’ll answer”.
She doesn’t know where to start. For once, she can’t find her words.
He continued…
Christian: “If you want to do this, apart from the NDA, there will be more paperwork. There will be a contract saying what we will and won’t do. I need to know your limits and you need to know mine. This is consensual, Anastasia”.
Ana: “If I don’t want to do this?” she whispers…
Christian: “ That’s fine” he says quietly.
Ana: “We won’t have any sort of relationship?”
Christian: “No”
Ana: “Why”
Christian: “This is the only kind of relationship I am interested in.”
With that, he diverted her attention. He offered her some food. She doesn’t want to eat but he insisted. He is so bossy and controlling.
Ana: “Is it easy to find women to do this?”
He gave her a look and replied.
Christian: “you’d be surprised.”
Ana: “Then why me?”
Christian: “I think I’ve told you… there is something about you. I can’t leave you alone” he smiles a small smile and continued. “I am like a moth to a flame”…he takes a deep breath… “I want you badly, Anastasia” a pause then he continued in almost whisper “….especially now, when you are biting your lip again”….he looks at her.
Ana’s stomach is again in knots. He wants her. This beautiful kinky man wants her…..but he won’t sleep with her in bed. She is confused and a heavy heart sinks in.
Christian: “Can we go to my study? I want to show you something…”
What more could there be?
Ana follows him into his study.
Christian: “Here are the rules. They maybe subject to change…a part of the contract. Some are negotiable. “ He hands her the paper…. She reads.
There are about 8 rules from clothing, exercise, personal hygiene, safety, food, obedience and personal qualities. Then there is another page titled “hard limits”.
Ana: “hard limits?”
Christian: “yes, what you won’t do, what I won’t do…. we need to specify them in our agreement for our own comfort”.
There is comfort in this? She wonders.
She looked over at the hard limits: no needles, knives, piercing, or blood. No fire play, no acts that will leave permanent marks on the skin…. The list goes on.
They all seem sensible and necessary…. She is starting to feel uncomfortable...
Christian: “Is there anything you’d like to add?”
Ana: “huh?” whispers in confused state.
Christian: “Is there anything you won’t do?”
Ana: “I don’t know”
Christian” “What do you mean you don’t know.”
Ana: “I’ve never done anything like this”.
Christian: “Well”… “when you had sex, was there anything that you didn’t like doing?”
She is beet red now…. She stares down at her hands and bite her lip in nervousness.
Christian: “We have to be honest with each other, Anastasia, or this isn’t going to work.”
She is still deciding…
Christian: “Please tell me”.
Ana: “I… I… I haven’t had sex before so I don’t know”
She peeked up at him through her lashes. He is surprised. He faced turned pale.
Christian: “Never” he whispers in disbelief. She nods. “You are a virgin”.
She nods again blushing.
He closed his eyes for several moments….and when he opens them, she saw anger in his eyes.
Christian: “Why didn’t you tell me?”
Ana is quiet.
Christian paced back and forth in his office as if he is trying to calm himself down and to gather back his control.
Christian: “I don’t understand why you didn’t tell me”…..
Ana finally speaks up…
Ana: “It never came up and I don’t normally talk about my sexual status. We hardly know each other….”
Christian: “I knew you were inexperience ...... but a virgin? ….. Geez, Ana…. How have you avoided sex? You are 21… almost 22… and you are beautiful.”
She blushed at his last words. He thinks she is beautiful…..
Christian: “Tell me please”….
Ana: “No one’s really, you know….. “ she didn’t know how to tell him that she was not interested in it until she met him….. “why are you angry with me?”
Christian: “I am not angry with you… I am angry at myself…. I assumed. I should have known" he shakes his head …. “do you want to go?” his voice is gentle now.
Her heart sunk. She is not ready to go…. She doesn’t want to go. Not yet.
Ana: “No” she whispers. “Do you want me to go?”
Christian: “No, I like having you here.” He looks at her lips…. “you are biting your lip”… his eyes locked with hers.
Ana: “sorry” and releases her lip.
Christian: “Don’t say sorry….. It’s just that……. I want to bite it too.. hard.”
Ana’s mouth is suddenly dry. Her eyes full of desire now…
Christian: “come” he held out his hand.
Ana: “ah… what?”
Christian: “Spend the night with me Ana. I want to make love to you. I want to teach you and train you with the basics…. that is if you want to.” he says softly.
Ana: “I thought you don’t make love. I thought you fucked hard.” She is still holding on to her wits.
He now grins…
Christian: “I can make an exception Ana. I really want our arrangement to work and want you to know what you are getting yourself into.” he quietly continued “that doesn’t mean I’ve become all heart and flowers but please come to bed with me. I really want to make love to you”.
She can’t look away. He is so seductive.
Ana: “but your rules….”
Christian: “Forget the rules. Forget about all the details tonight”… he looks at her in the eyes. “I want you. I’ve wanted you since you fell into my office… and I think you want me too. You wouldn’t be here if you didn’t right? Please Ana…stay with me tonight.”
He reached for her hand, pulls her up and into his arms….. their eyes locked.
He leans down and kissed her lips gently, biting her lower lip.
Christian: “I’ve been waiting to do this…… please Ana…let me make love to you”.
Ana doesn’t remember how she said yes but she said yes while kissing him back.
When Ana catches her breath, she realized that he had lead her down stairs to his bedroom.
Ana: in a whisper as almost talking to herself “I thought you didn’t let anyone in sleep in your bed…” she wondered.
He was by the window closing the shades…
Christian: “who said we are going to sleep” he grins…. His playful wicked smile returns.
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