In the kitchen, Soraya was looking around at what the servant was preparing for breakfast she check through the vegetable and meat . She decided to cook---the servant look at each other and didn’t object . Soraya was a great cooker . When she in school she never buy school lunch . She always carry home meal . Money was very important and tight around her house. Before she was force to strip at the whorehouse she have to sell rice cake at the street market everyday after school working very hard and she have to take care of grandma ...so many memory ....she was home sick all the sudden and miss her family very much ..mostly grandma ..
Grandpa was sitting at the dining table as Soraya come in following by a servant holding the tray . Soraya pick up a bowl of chicken rice soup and laid it in front of him.
He smell it “ you cook this , dear ?”
She nodded her head “yes Mr. Natwata.”
He take a bit “ this is delicious my dear ! by a enemy daughter , i’m quite surprise!” she feel the attack and grandpa saw the sudden change in her face and quickly said “ no , i’m sorry , you nothing like your father , i admitted to holding a grudge on you because of your father ....but after what happen the other day convince me you really a good person and i’m quite jealous of your father to have a daughter like you !” grandpa words bring such joy in her heart she want to weep for his forgiveness .
Soraya was speechless tear was in her eye “ Mr. Natwata , i don’t know what to say , thank you , thank you” Grandpa pat her head and ask her to sit down and enjoy the meal but Soraya notice grandma haven't came down yet . Grandpa said she doesn’t feel so good . She excuse herself to bring the meal to Grandma . .
Before entering the room she knock over the door . Grandma answer “ come in”
Soraya slowly walking in holding a tray “ I thought you might be hungry , please have something to eat” she walk closer .
Grandma was sitting on her rocking chair looking out the window . She saw Soraya and was angry “ who told you to come in !!! get out you murder !!”
Soraya said“ you haven’t ate anything yet , please take a bit . Harit told me ...you have to take your medicine every 8 hours ”
Soraya kneel both of her knee to the floor and laid the tray down she look up to grandma seaching for her face and continue “ Ms. Natwata ?”
The old lady was getting heated and scream out “ get out! what savage language you been taught ? You don’t understand the word out ? get your disgusted face from me !!” Soraya was hurt but she must keep calm ..she promise Harit she will take care of her “ Ms. Natwata , i’ll go once you have your medicine ok ?”
This time Soraya just push the button. Grandma rise up from her chair and kick the bowl of rice soup making it spill on Soraya arm . She gasp in pain ---it was burning hot causing red stain on her arm . Soray bit her lip to hold the scream .
Grandma smirk and said “ you stupid kid ! you think i’ll eat this crap ? don’t play charming girl toward me !”
Grandma then pinch her shoulder hard causing Soraya to rise from the floor . The old lady laid bunches of pinches .Soraya was hurting but she remain silent taking the punishment .
Grandma was furious at the young girl stubbornness to scream in pain . Grandma start pointing finger against her head pushing it “ mark my word in your thick skull ....i hate you ! so is Harit ! you think one day your innocent will make him love you ? think again! My grandson will not take a trash from the alley like you as the wife and mother of his kids ! my grandson will torture you like no tomorrow ! you nothing . you filthy scum ! My god . Didn’t Harit found you at the whore house ....what man will except that and none less respect you …..dirty whore!”
Soraya was so hurt listening to the insult …. every words of it is true . Harit hate her ....tear was dripping from her eye . She begin to weep softly biting her tremble lip as her hand covering the burn spot . Grandma smile in disgust “ get out of here ! if i’m hungry you think people will starve me ?get out!!” Soraya bend down to pick up the tray .....and left the room ..
She went to her room and pull the ointment from the cabinet she rub some on her arm and put it away . She wipe the tear from her face. Soraya was very disappointed she try .. it not like she didn’t . Suddenly there a rush in her throat she run to the bath and vomited. The baby wore her out . She tier and her head is spinning. She laid on the bed to sleep.
Later that night , Harit didn’t came home to dinner because there was important meeting . He ask the servant did Soraya ate anything yet .
The servant said “ she come down to make a sandwich but after one bit she throw up all of it ”
Harit listen and ask “ was she sick?” the servant shrug her shoulder . Harit took off his suit and went up stair to her room .He open the door and walk in . Soraya was sleeping silently. He close the door .
She woke up and move to a sitting position “ you home ? ...you didn’t came to dinner ?” she was really hurt when he didn’t show up . Harit want to tell her the truth that something important came up but why should he? He said “ i just didn’t feel like it ! why ? do i have to do as you command !” he was rising his voice again ..
Grandma was right she mean nothing to him and perhaps the baby inside her is nothing too ...just a mistake he was looking for pleasure but god play trick on her and bless them a child . She think to herself “you still have me as a mother and a father” .O’ how she was crying in her heart it hurt her so much knowing her child is unwanted .
Hairt change into his pajama . Soraya was still sitting there hugging her stomach not aware of what Harit was doing until he was about to leave ...she break down in tear sobbing silently her face expression was heartbreaking .
She slide down and pull the blanket tightly against her chest and bury her face in the pillow to silent her whimper. Harit stop his pace at the sound of her cry . He feel strange all the sudden he body just froze ...he turn to look at Soaya . His eye twitch in wonder ...he doesn’t like this sorrow coming from her ...somehow it bother him to leave her alone
He close the door ---- but he still in the room . He walk toward the bed listening to her cry and seeing her body tremble in uncontrollable grief make his body sigh . His face seen worry not understanding why she suddenly cry ? Is it because he didn’t came to dinner ? He climb in bed and going under the blanket . Supporting by one elbow he turn her around and she move to meet his eye . He hesitated . He doesn’t want to show pity yet his heart went soft to her cry and ask “ what wrong? Why are u crying ? ” he brush the tear away with his thump and finger .
She felt so relieve that he didn’t leave her alone. She need comfort from him and only him.
She doesn’t want him to leave not while she vulnerable but
she doesn’t how to express it in word or how to tell him how she feel . She afraid of rejection.
Then she remember her intention …..to be sweet and loving to show him how much he mean to her don’t let modest get in the way .
She move closer toward this chest and hug him ..tightly .
Harit laid there as she rest her head on his shoulder .
Harit slowly move his arm to hug her back . She let out a sob as he touch her .
She love him .Yes. She love him. If she didn’t love him than she wouldn’t show this much affection ......
She lift her head to look at him .
Harit gazing in her watery eye . He kiss her forehead and she close her eye to the touch ... “Harit….. I want you to stay with me tonight. Don’t leave me” he pull back to look at her. She was beautifully enchanting and he was speechless. He doesn’t know what hit him but hearing that line make his heart pound . After a long behold -- he tip her chin to his lip and kiss her softly, warm and moistly....
