It's true, we take things for granted. When I was younger, I was a lot more immature and selfish. I was greedy, so I wanted to experience life, date around, have fun and sort of wanted him to wait for me or experience life too, but don't get serious with anyone. Haha. He wouldn't be my BFF if he wasn't a great guy. You know what I mean? He was like the right guy but at the wrong time. When I realized that I liked him, my passion to live life to the fullest was more important so I ignored it until he met this girl who became more important to him than me. He's only had two girlfriends. The first one, we were all too young so I knew it wouldn't be anything serious plus I didn't like her, not because of him, but her attitude was just bad. Then when he met this one, he was older, more mature, and ready to settle down. I guess, I was the more outgoing and carefree one so taking someone seriously in my early twenties wasn't even a thought like him. I always told myself that I won't open up my heart for marriage until my 30's. I wanted to live my twenties by myself with no strings tied to someone else and just enjoy life. We only live once plus I'm more of the don't want to commit type. Haha. Anyway, I felt the deepest cut when he introduced me to this new girl. I liked her and if I liked her, she was a keeper for sure. I realized, she's here to stay and when I knew that I had lost him, lost his heart, lost that chance, it was very painful. I guess, if he hadn't met her, I may still have played it off like we're buddies and not acknowledge my heart for him. The day I was forced to acknowledge it, it was too late. Even if he doesn't marry her later on, we can never be the same. The time has passed, you know? Like I can't be with him anymore knowing how much he loves this girl and she came after me. It's weird and I'm weird but that's how I feel. We're still good friends but like Mahalo said, I know my boundaries. I'm friends with the both of them. I hang out with the both of them together, never alone with him anymore. I consider her feelings as well as his. I don't ever want to place him in a situation where she has to question about me. It's never going to be between us, I've accepted that and moved on.
It's nice to be able to share the silly mistakes of our youth. They will always be warm memories. It's like that one saying, there are no regrets, just lessons.