Now i sit here wondering how crazy this world can get....... so much is running thru my mind, from School, to Work, Life, Love, and Happiness. sigh, i need to stop thinking before my migranes comes back in action....
anyways to start out with........ School is blah if ur wanting to know, like seriously atm... i'm just attempting to get my AA and just transfer off to App State. i mean it may sound easy cause it's just a 2 step procedure but nooooooo... so much is going on in my head that it's slowing my learning, i feel so dumb cause i sit there in class not understand what the hell the teachers lecture'n about, like damn it....in HS how come it was easier to understand and now it's like "umm are u speaking in english cause i Angy can't comprehend what the hell ur saying"...lol.....cause all i hear now is Blah Blah Blah, weird how i can see things go in slow motion too...hahah!! like seriously i need to get away from this town, i'm physically ready but financial i'm not......i'm broke as shit..lol haahh i know funny... she works hard for the $$ but doesnt manage to save alot.....cause she's busy giving out $$ to people who needs it the most..sigh!!!
i need a real job, something that's gunna make me sweat..bitch and complain how stupid and retarded my bosses are... since day one of working, i've always had great jobs.............. meaning jobs that's been handed to me. 1st job's working at JIRDC, a developemental center....yeah that was fun, i worked in a kitchen facility and ohh man it was fun cause i was able to assist the cooks which if u know me i LOVE's to cook
.. anyways later on i moved to cottages to serving food to residents there, man there were some crazy ones!! while working that one, i was pressure'd into taking my sisters job..i guess cause she got lazy and i'm like wth's wrong with u?? awesome job of staying at my place just take'n care of grams and getting paid too!! well that lady got my parents to pressure me in take'n that job which sucks ass cause i was already working my noon job!!! i was working both jobs for 3 months and was so drained out cause i had to get up at 6am to take care of grams.. bath her some, cook her some..... did chores and just basically took care of her......... and around 3pm'ish rush to my other job at JIRDC and worked until 7pm......man i was wiped and i missed all my little sisters soccer games
.. yeah 3 months passed by and i had to quit my job that i only had for a year, right when i was getting along with everyone i had to leave
anyways life's life u have to move on..... but yeah. anyways it's been almost 2yrs now since i've tooken care of grams, she's now 100 yrs old, stilll healthy, still able to walk and talk, bitch and gossip....lol...i guess u can see where i got that from....lmfao!!!! anyways i know that less then a few months i have to quit this job cause i'll be moving out since i'll be graduating soon
.............. now i'm just sad wondering will they take good care of her??? will they be able to keep up with her when it comes to sneaking out to garden?? lmfao......see how i worry so much?? i just need to learn how to let go and just move on with my life..sigh i dont know how long she's going to have with us but i'm planning to spend every second with her
Life's life, it's boring and i gots too much responsibilities!!! times when i want to escape, i can't....everyone's looking up to me, my parents are depending on my help at the moment cause they work 24/7, and no really has to take time to take care of those damn siblings...lol!!! as much as i want to spend time with them, i can't cause almost every weekday, i dont come home until 10pm which sucks
!!!! and as for weekends, i do my best to hangout with them, clean, HW, and laundry....... phew what a life, and all i wanted to do was just go to the Flea Market and get me a freaken Funnel Cake..lol jk
Love Intrest?? none atm, i'm just here on this earth to mess around... no such thing as love cause it's all LUST...lol!!! anyways i'm kinda intrested in someone atm, no need to mention any names cause someone cough cough might know who he is...lmfao....so shss......he always there to hear me bitch and complaining, he trusts me which i find that superly odd...lol!! schools important for him which i admire that alot
, he's a very determine person, and he know's what he wants in life. he's not the best looking guys but he'll do, he's kinda dorkie and plus he's a listener....who doesnt love that huh?? surely i do
....lol.....sad how things i think are changing between us.... he's always so busy and i hardly get talk him
, but i'll give him space........ i miss him already
!!!!!!!! Anyways my only prob atm.....is FLIRTING!! like i can't help it and it's such a hobbie, i must master in this hahahah!!! i just hope that my feelings dont change from him cause atm, i'm just surrounded by cute guys.....ahhhhhhhhhhh..lol!! Since this years started i've began alittle experiment, i'm not going to mention about what i've been up to but if it's working i'll tell u about it, hahah some people are just so dumb and so gullible....lol....jk........
HAPPINESS?? well i think i'm pretty alrighty, i feel nothing atm since i'm so HEARTLESS..... ehhh man i'm so tired in typing atm, i need to quit bitching and start doing something about it......lol...... well enough yapping which i'm not quite done yet.................... TO BE CONTINUE.....MUAHAHHA~~~