Man, it's been a while since I blogged...which reminds me that I need to start doing that more often again. About three years ago, I started a blog which I updated everyday as a way to chronicle my life as a college student. As I'm about to graduate, I look back on all that's changed and all the stuff I've been through and wonder how it all could have been different. I know people say all the time that you should never look back or that you should always live life as to never regret anything. Of course, in reality that's never true. No matter how someone lives, there always is a feeling of wanting to go back in time, whether it is to change something or to relive an experience. Hmm....which makes me wonder what's the point of this blahing now.
Anyway, so I just woke up and I realized that it's freakin cold in my room. At the same time, the weather is not nearly at its freezing point like it is normally. There's no snow on the ground and I usually can go outside with a sweater. I can't say for sure that this is a result of global warming but it's definitely a little disconcerting. That, along with all that's going on in the world right now really makes you wonder what you're heading into. The US looks poised to move out of the Mideast soon...yet I doubt the area got any more stable. China constantly hides its problems such as AIDS coverup to its persecution of certain groups. And hell, who knows what North Korea is up to. All of that and we're just looking at international affairs. At home, we're dealing with cops and their contagious shootings, bi-party fights that don't exactly seem to help the country, hate crimes that still doesn't seem to resolve itself, and people more worried about whether gay marriages will destroy the institution of marriage as opposed to worrying about genocide in Darfur or the impending civil war in the Eritrean region.
All of that and a person can't help but be pessimistic. At the same time, many generations have had their share of woes and yet they've survived. In fact, other generations have had it worse. Through all the muck, I think people forget sometimes the power of the human spirit. Haha...so why am I blahing about all of this? I can't really say for sure. Maybe it's because I just woke up or maybe it's because I'm listening to Darv sing the song Sommot but I'm just in a pensive state. I actually haven't thought about anything for the past 3 months and I'm wondering exactly what's up next for me. I've been so lethargic with everything that's going on that I am feeling a little detached. For all of last month, I almost didn't go to class and it's weird knowing that I might be in another rut. The last time this happened, I told my dad I needed to get away and then took the next flight out to SE Asia. Aside from the fact that I can't do that because of school, I'm also running on broke so that's out of the question.
Ahh...I've written aimlessly for a while now. I think when I break it down, I'm just ready for a vacation. It's a good thing I'm heading home in two weeks. It's about time I get reconnected with my family and remember why I'm out here in the first place.
And there you go - a long piece of writing from me. It's been a while since I did that.
