Another solid episode! I really thought it would end today but apparently not- not that I'm complaining! Far from it. I'm a hot mess right now, trying to get through Na Ram's confession of the past through blurry eyes.
We all guessed it- Na Ram did kill someone. Being a farmer is tough, there are ups and downs, times where the going is good and times where you suffer some losses. Na Ram deluded himself into thinking that Rassamee can weather the storm with him. But her true colors came out- condescending and demanding- while Na Ram try to do everything to make up for his financial shortcomings. Along came Nara, his light at the end of the tunnel. Rassamee's behavior is so abhorrent, his mother passed and his father decided that monkhood is the best way to live out his life. It's a sad, unfortunate family life.
Not surprising, Rassamee had a secret lover and she's fed up with Na Ram's inability to support her to the standards that she was used to. She gave him a few days to come up with the money she needed (for what? Makeup? Clothing? Male strip club?) Desperate, Na Ram 'borrowed' the money from his part time job- he was supposed to deposit the money to the bank for his employer but decided he'd keep the money for Rassamee in hopes to pay it back later.
The lover discovers this and when Na Ram finds them together, the lover threatens to tell on him. He would let it go if Na Ram allowed him to continue his affair with Rassamee. Na Ram literally saw red and stabbed the man twice with a pair of scissors. He was at wits end.
Na Ram spent 8 years in jail but jail time, as he admitted, was not nearly as bad as the time outside of jail. Repentance. He endured societal discriminations, insults and could not find a decent job. That is, until he applied for a job at Nai Singh's farm in Chiang Rai, to get away from it all. Nai Singh saw in him what others are blind to see, a capable farmer, a hard worker, and a man dealt with a bad hand in life. Thus, Na Ram is given a second chance. The reality that people look down on an ex-con, propelled him to stay away from his daughter. He believed everything his ex wife told him.
The sweetest, and probably worth everything that he endured are Nara's words to him: "I could never forgive you.. if you don't forgive yourself first."
Na Ram has made a series of bad decisions and he has paid his dues through the pain and heartache he endured. Gah, I'm teary eyed again as I recall this scene. Rassamee is just plain evil, I thought maybe she would have at least one redeeming quality, but alas, just evil. I think her goal in life is to stay out of her father's wing, thus the running away with Na Ram and then falling for the Big Bad, but yet she failed everytime, showing us that her method through life is wrong and karma is a bitch.
I love the father-daughter story, which is the main backbone of this lakorn. Both are searching for each other, to put their hearts back to where they belong. By finding her father, Nara also finds another part of her heart, Nai Singh. Although their love story takes a back seat to the relationship between father and daughter, it's still so sweet and so swoon worthy. Nai Singh and Na Ram both captured my heart. Especially when Nai Singh says that he has waited 32 years for her, 2 more years (while she studies abroad) is nothing. Her grandpa said that she could choose to live with her father, as long as she finishes her grad program.
I'm continually in love with Nai Singh and Na Ram's relationship. I love how they call each other out, for example when Nai Singh finds out Nara is leaving to America in 7 days, he used Na Ram as an excuse, but Na Ram told him to find a better excuse. Hahaha.
I also love Nai Singh and Nong's relationship. I feel badly that Nong feels that she's always the last to know, and recently broken hearted by Na Ram's rejection, she's extra sensitive to everything. I know that it's only human to feel jealous that Na Ram has someone to love, whether it's his daughter or his ex wife. But Nai Singh consoles her that she has every right to love someone, if that love is pure.
It breaks my heart that Na Ram stood outside her bedroom door, wanting to ask how she's doing, but still afraid to step forward. I can't wait to see how their story plays out!
Sorry for the novel but I NEEDED to share how I'm feeling after watching episode 12
I'm such a spazz. I can't wait for the ending tomorrow. But buckle your seatbelt, there's more crazy before the happy ending. Psycho Adisorn is still on the loose!