Chap 19
Anonpol Mansion
Mrs. Monrudee approached Anon who just returned from work. Anon smiled at his mother as the servant come and take his coat and portfolio.
‘’You look tired. Are you ok?’’ Mrs. Monrudee ask hers only son.
‘’I just visited Nam in hospital.’’ He saw his mother worried face and explain. ‘’It’s not serious, she was exhausted because of little rest.’’
Mrs. Monrudee look at hers son, she senses that something was bothering him and decide to talk with him.
‘’Is there anything bothering you, Anon?’’
Anon don’t know if he should tell his mother what was bothering him. What bothering him was that he knows why Darika was so exhausted. He know that Darika might be thinking about Hiran and it make her hurt and restless. He knows that Darika and he is a couple now and he also know that Darika didn’t love him but he is happy now for what she give him. Maybe Darika will love him some day. He wished he could replace Hiran in hers heart.
‘’Anon, what relationship are you and Darika in?’’ Mrs. Monrudee ask when hers son didn’t answer hers first question. She wanted to know the relationship of them so she can at least try to convince hers husband to not involve with Darika if Darika is Anon’s girlfriend.
‘’Nam is my girlfriend.’’ This time Anon answered and Mrs. Monrudee was happy with his answer. She doesn’t want her husband to go involve with Darika as Darika might not be Janthara that her husband think. If Darika was Janthara, she still doesn’t want her husband go involve with her as she is very much younger than him and this isn’t the past life. She saw how her husband changes from each day that pass by after that Darika appeared in their life again. She knows what her husband is capable of and starting to get worry about Darika. But Darika being Anon’s girlfriend might put Anonpol in his corner and not go involve with her again as she is his son’s girlfriend.
‘’I am really happy for you, Anon.’’
Traikorn Masion – Hiran’s workroom
After having dinner with his family, Hiran go up to finish the work that he took from the company. He hasn’t start that much yet when he heard a knock on the door and saw his mother come in with a glass of warm milk.
‘’You need to look after your health too.’’ Mrs. Rathree said as she handed him the warm milk.
‘’Thank you, mom.’’ Hiran thanked his mother and took a sip of it before he put down it on the table.
Seeing his mother smiles he jokily said ‘’It’s creepy when you smile like that, mom.’’
Mrs. Rathree smiles even more at his joke, there isn’t many people who get to see this side of Hiran, the playful side. Hiran will be like this just when he is with his closest family member and friends. Other time he would have put on a fierce mask that she sometime thought it doesn’t suit hers son but being the CEO, he has to look determined for the staff to respect him.
‘’You know, I and your father has talked about you and Nina.’’ Mrs. Rathree bring up the subject she was to come talk with him. Hiran looked at her while she put hers hand on his hair and stroked it gently. She haven’t talk like this with hers son for a while as Hiran was busy with the company that he just take over from his father. ‘’We were thinking, it’s about time you get married with Nina.’’
‘’Can you give me a little more time?’’
Hiran’s question surprised Mrs. Rathree because she has thought hers son was ready as he has everything now, work that is stable, a home that he could live with his wife and a wife that he love. Mrs. Rathree didn’t ask what the time was for as she knows Hiran know what he do. ‘’Take the time you need and tell us when you are ready.’’
‘’I will. Thank you, mom.’’
‘’Drink it while it’s warm.’’ Mrs. Rathree pointed at the glass of milk before she left, leaving him to work.
Hiran asked for more time because he wanted to sort things out, he wanted to find out if he is Uthai so that he can stop thinking about it when he get married to Nina. He can’t help but to wonder about Uthai from the day that he saw the photo that Jiang send to him. He wanted to prove himself that he is not Uthai before he marry Nina and the only way he can think out now is to look at the ring that Uthai has gave to Janthara. Because that ring was bounded to both Darika and Uthai, it might make him remember his past if he is Uthai.
Wongsawan House
Nina drive Darika home from the hospital as Anon can’t because he has works to do at the company. Darika excused herself to her room to shower and change clothes while Nina waited down stair. They decided to hang out together as Darika don’t need to go work today.
Darika’s bedroom
‘’Nam, aunt Napha said you don’t need to help close the shop today.’’ Nina comes up into Darika’s room after that she answered the phone down stairs from Mrs. Napha.
‘’Okay!’’ Darika shouted back from bathroom as she was showering. ‘’Give me some more minutes.’’
‘’Sure!’’ Nina said, parted from the bathroom door. ‘’I will wait at down stairs.’’
Nina was going to the door but as she was passing by the work table, hers foot stumbled on a cardboard box, making it to fall down. She kneed down to pick it up as some papers fall outside, hers hand hesitated a moment before she could bring hers hand to pick the paper up.
‘’It’s just trash. You don’t need to pick it up.’’ Nina heard Darika said from behind her, she could tell the different in hers voice like Darika don’t want her to see what is in it. She wanted to say it was too late, she already saw it but she couldn’t make a sound.
Darika go toward her slowly, she hoped the thing Nina stumbled on wasn’t the box of Uthai’s sketch that she was to fire. In fact, Darika quickly showered when she heard the noise that come when Nina stumbled on the box and remembered what she has in it. She doesn’t want Nina to find out that Hiran is Uthai because she herself doesn’t want to find out about it anymore. She has decided to think Hiran as just someone that shared the same face as Uthai because he doesn’t seem to remember anything about them.
‘’You say you sketch your past lover from your dream.’’ Nina said before Darika could get to her, Darika’s heart almost stopped knowing Nina has saw the sketch and she can’t lie to her anymore. ‘’Why didn’t you tell me it was Hiran?’’
‘’He is not Uthai.’’ Darika explain.
Nina looked at the sketch again and looked questioning at Darika because the more she looks, the more the sketch looks like Hiran. ‘’You never talk about Uthai again after that I engage to Hiran. You apply the job there because of him, right? Does he know that he is Uthai?’’
‘’No.’’ Darika said shortly as it’s hurting her that he don’t remember her.
‘’How can you let me be engages to him?’’ Nina asks with weeping eyes, she knows how much Uthai meant to Darika and if Hiran is Uthai then she can’t take him from her. ‘’I can’t take him from you.’’
‘’Because he is not Uthai.’’ Tears run down from hers eyes as she explains to Nina. ‘’He don’t even remember a thing. He laughed right in my face when I tell him about my past with him.’’ Darika wiped hers tears roughly. ‘’He loves you..and you loves him. That is all that matter.’’
‘’I need you to forget what you saw here. Can you do it for me, Nina?’’ Nina nods and hugs Darika as they both cried together. ‘’They just look alike, ok?’’
Shopping Mall
Hiran look at Nina who seems not to be presences after that they have walked out from the cinema. He get a hold of hers hand which make her to look at him.
‘’Something wrong?’’ He asked worriedly as he has never seen Nina be like that.
‘’Oh, everything fine. I am just thinking about something.’’ Nina lied. In fact, after that she saw the sketches and know Hiran might be Uthai, hers world fall apart. Even though Darika make her promise not to think of it anymore and make sure that they just looked a like, it still bother her that they looked so much alike that they could be one person. She is starting to fear maybe one day Hiran get to know he really is Uthai and then how will they do? Will Hiran go after Darika when he remembers his past? Can she endure the pain that will occur then? She know that she said to Darika that she can’t take Hiran from her but she can’t either give him to her if he is Uthai as she wanted to do. She loves Hiran very much that just thinking about losing him makes her fall apart.
‘’Something you want to tell me?’’ Hiran asked again because Nina becomes quest. ‘’You want me to go send you home? You don’t look fine.’’
‘’Sorry..I am just a little bit tired after the movie.’’ Nina explains. ‘’I will make up for you next time.’’
‘’I will be waiting.’’ Hiran said and look at her smiling.
Dasies Heaven – Dasies Garden
The sprinkler that is on watered the many colors daisies as their owner lay down on the bench. Darika come to hers garden as today is holiday, she was listening to music while hers daisies been watered, hers feet were crossed and rested on the edge of the bench as hers eyes were closed, following the melody of the songs.
Counter
The man that entered the shop was greeted by Malee.
‘’Good afternoon, Mister! Can I get you something for you?’’ Malee kindly said with a smile.
‘’I am not here to buy flower.’’ Said the man which makes Malee to look at him confusing.
She wanted to ask why he was here then but she doesn’t want to sound rude because it’s not good for the shop reputation.
‘’What can I help you with then?’’ She kindly asks.
‘’Do Miss. Darika work here today?’’ Because he don’t know where she live and get only the shop address from that time they ordered flowers from here, he chances and hope to see her here today so he can get answers of what is bothering him.
‘’She don’t work here today.’’ The answer made him to sigh as he really was hoping to get things clear up for him today. ‘’But she is in the garden at backyard.’’
‘’Really? Uh, Can I go see her?’’ He saw how Malee hesitated and decided to say who he is so she can let him see her. ‘’Sorry, I didn’t introduce myself. I am Hiran. Miss. Darika’s employer.’’
‘’Oh, sorry.’’ Malee apologize. ‘’I will go get her for you.’’
‘’You should help your customer.’’ Hiran said and pointed at the lady that is looking at the flowers. ‘’Just tell me the way, I can get there by myself.’’
Daisies Garden
Hiran saw the many colors of daisies as he entered the not so large garden. He doesn’t need to seek after Darika as he already saw her, laying on the bench as he entered the garden. It looks like she wasn’t aware of his entering as she didn’t get up to look at his way. He go toward to her and find out that she didn’t hear him because she has headphone on hers ears and eyes were closed. He wondered if she was sleeping because until now she hasn’t opened hers eyes to look at him yet. Hiran looked at hers hands in seeking after the ring that Uthai gave to her but she wasn’t wearing any rings.
Darika who was about to fall asleep awoke to something touching hers neck and grabbed hold of it. She opened hers eyes and saw Hiran looking at her surprised as he didn’t meant to wake her up and see him in hers garden.
‘’Sorry, I didn’t meant to wake you up.’’ He said. ‘’I just wanted to see your necklace.’’
Darika was speechless, it was unexpected to see him in hers garden and why didn’t he wake her up. Hers heart almost stopped when she felt something touching hers neck, thought it was a snake or something.
‘’My necklace?’’ Darika ask confusing.
‘’You aren’t wearing any rings. I want to see the ring Uthai gave to you.’’ He guessed that Darika might wear the ring as pendant to hers necklace. That was actually the reason why he was touching hers neck as he was trying to get the necklace without waking her up. That way Darika don’t need to know that he has seen the ring and if he is Uthai or not.
Darika release his hand that she was holding and hesitate to show him the ring as she wasn’t sure if it’s a good thing as they are moving on. Moreover, she was afraid to know that he might not be Uthai. Thinking him as Uthai and leaving him to Nina was better than get to know that he is not Uthai at all. Or what if he remembers everything now and they have to separate for the sake of the other person that loves them and endure the pains.
‘’I don’t believe I am Uthai.’’ Darika look at Hiran with weeping eyes. ‘’I just want to make sure this doesn’t affect my life after I married to Nina. I want to end it, for you and for me.’’
After hearing what Hiran said, Darika knew that he wanted to prove himself that he is not Uthai so he can start a family with Nina. Darika unlock the necklace and give it to him so they both can move on with their life without bringing up Uthai again, as he wanted.
Hiran looked at the ring for a moment and gave it back to Darika. ‘’Thank you! Now we can move on with our life.’’ Darika took the ring from him. ‘’I am not Uthai.’’
Darika held the ring in hers hand and smiled sadly as she watched Hiran go out from the garden. She has to admit to herself that deep down she hoped him to be Uthai and remember their past, not to have him by herself but to hold him for the last time. The chance she didn’t get in the past life and now this life as well. She wiped the tears that run downs hers cheeks as she held the ring tightly.
Outside the shop
Hiran angrily struck the steering wheel of his car and regretted that he come look for prove. He looked back at the flower shop again with weeping eyes and his heart that silently calls out for her, the one he just cut out of his life.